I was looking through some older pictures the other day. When I
uncovered the one of Hakeem, I instantly felt flutters in my stomach.
The guilt crept back into my soul...just like it was only eight days
instead of eight years since he left this earth. I never dated this
guy. He was my best friend from the moment I met him until the day God
took him from us. He was SO good to me at a time when I was a single
mom of one and needed a good support system. We figured out early on
that we were too much alike to have anything but a platonic
relationship...and that worked out well for us. The guilt I feel now
is because he was spiritually so much more advanced than me. When
things went wrong, he wanted to pray and I wanted to FIGHT!!!! I
didn't want to hear that prayin' stuff!!! He would pray for me
anyway. I was at another place in my life then...one that I'm glad is
in my PAST!!! But, I still have issues when I look at pictures of him.
I don't know if anyone else has ever experienced this: there are
certain emotions attached to some of the pictures I have...so many that
I can't bear to look at/scrap them. Pictures of Hakeem fall into that
category. But, I'm trying to be better...I AM better! That's why
coming across this picture made me say "time out for the foolishness!"
I know in my heart that he would be happy that I'm spiritually
maturing....so I created this:
This was one of the pictures used to create the funeral program so it was already cropped...perfect to use on top of a ACR WRITER'S BLOCK SUPER HEROES SMASH (in tomato). To create my title, I used the CHIPBOARD:SHELBY ALPHABET and the CHIPBOARD:VETTE ALPHABET (in small and large). And how PERFECT was the CHIPBOARD WHAM BANG OUCH!
to illustrate the state my heart is in? Hopefully the fact that I'm
scrapping him for the first time in eight years means I'm healing and
I'll soon only feel happy butterflies when I think of him...this is for